Autism questionsI'm just curious about it. I have a hard time conversing with people about anything mostly with women. I rather just listen. Sometimes I don't know if I should say something or not. It's worse on the phone for me, I just don't like doing it. Talking in front of a group of people is hopeless, I get nervous and my face goes numb and I can't speak right at all. I have a hard time making new friends. I have a group of friends but that group has stayed the same. I like to do routines, the one I notice the most is when I get gas I always buy a can or Arizona Rx drink, or during the school year I would always get a turk wrap sandwich. When I walk I skip steps. When I sit down I like to shake my right leg. Another routine I like to do is when I drive to college. I take the same route even though taking the highway would be faster. I sometimes say stuff that might come as offensive or cold but I don't realize it until I actually think about what I said. I'm 23 and still haven't dated. Connecting with women is really hard for me. I'm known as the quiet one. I sometimes get into these modes where I like to focus on something. For example I had a huge interest in Slavic languages so I kind of read about them all but never really learned how to speak any of them. Social situations always end up being awkward for me no matter what. It's gotten to the point where I just go through with it and no care what the outcome is I just go through with it. I do get this epidemics where I would sit by new people but I loose interest in them so I just start sitting by myself again. It's more comfortable for me. There is a lot more then just this. I just have to say that the social life I have right now is really hard for me. I would also like to say that I'm at a internship for a huge company right now. It's so damn hard when I have to socialize with people especially when I don't know the person. I'll go through with it because I don't really have a choice but when they suggest 1 on 1 lunch meetings, I absolutely don't want to do them. Too much awkward silence from trying it in the past. This is also why I don't date. I just can't add anything to the table which is disappointing and depressing for me. I keep asking myself why I can't be normal and have a girlfriend like all my friends. My Mom keeps bugging me about it too. She really has no idea how hard it is for me to socialize. When I finish college it's gonna be a scary trip. I sometimes feel like I'm not going to be able to hold a job due to my awkwardness. I really hope I'm just over exaggerating. First, welcome to the board! and yes, i would go for an evaluation. There are great doctors and therapists who can help you understand yourself better, and offer support that could help you. Hi there! Do you have a regular physician that you go to for checkups or when you are sick? I would express your concerns to that person and ask for a referred to a neuropsychiatrist. If you post what state / county you live in, perhaps someone here could give you a recommendation for a good neuropsych to talk to. I live in the Chicago area and I have folks I could recommend if you so happened to live around here. The great thing about going to a neuropsych is that they can not only give you a dx (which would be done after talking to you, having you fill out some questionnaires and maybe taking a few tests) but that person can also help you with some strategies to deal with the situations that you find difficult such as dating or the workplace. Best of luck to you and welcome to the forum! I have a son who is almost 19 and what you are describing sounds simular to some of his issues. He was diagnosed a few years ago by a psychiatrist. I am definately no authority on the subject (this is actually my first post) but I would guess that getting some answers would probably help a lot of your anxiety. |
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