Somehow I lost me | Autism PDD

Ohhhhhhhhhhhh Mary, how incredible that is! It sent chills all over me! It has so many meanings for me. Those parents of special needs children and the children / adults with special needs that made the footprints, through and over the Mts before us. While our lives are difficult, how much more was their path hard to travel? The support and friendship I have found from others in like situations, how my life seems so topsy turvey and life has many more questions and is filled with much more uncertain and troblesome questions than it was 4 years ago. How I love my child more than I could have ever imagined it possible, how I can feel more helpless than I ever felt possible, I could go on and on with all the thoughts the poem stirred,

The poem is beautiful, TY for sharing.

I was lost walking through a snow storm.

Miles of snow flows over a sea of hills.

I turned around wondering "why I am going this way?”

I saw my footprints I thought "Who am I now that I have come this far?”

I followed my footprints back hoping I would find myself.

I found clues but not facts, and then I was back, back to the beginning of my journey.

I stood there, fatigued. Worn. Alone.

Looking at my footprints coming and going.

I am going in circles. I am dizzy. I am confused. Stagnate.

I must go somewhere. I must move forward.

I take one step, two, and then three.

Wow! I am moving again.

My balance is improving.

I am seeing clearer.

Wait, are these my footprints?

No, these are yours and generations before me.

There are thousands traveling here.

I am not alone anymore.

These hills are lessons learned.

When I get to the mountains I see you.

You are tired too....you take my hand, we cross the mountain together.

This is the story of how I found myself.

I found myself when I saw that life is bigger than me.

I found myself when I learned self sacrifice.

I found myself when I stopped looking at me and saw you.

You were there....and you were looking for yourself.

Hi, nice to meet you. What size shoes do you wear?

I am sure I won't fill them...but can I rest in your footprint?

\mary//

LOL..I got a little confused for a sec...which board was I on, LOL

hugs!

Ali

Somehow I am not me here, so I had to create a new me.......

sorry guys, I think I found myself again.

Again, sorry for the posts.

I thought "somehow I lost me" was going to be metaphorical

If anyone has a problem like this again PM me and I may be able to help!
Thanks for that good belly laugh

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I'm happy you found yourself.

I know what you mean about reading a book or taking a bubble bath. I have been
reading a book for the past year, I put it in the bathroom along with some magazines I want to read and I read a page or two or flip through a magazine. Hey a mom has to do what a mom can do to get some free time

, even if it is only for a minute or two.
Oh Jill, We can go there too! I often feel like I am no longer the me I was before my son was born. I can not tell you when th elast time I read a book, took a bubble bath, went to a movie, slept 8 hours at one time, made an appointment without having to fuss and scheme and usually reschedule at least once. In that sense, I KNOW that I have lost a big part of me. By the same token, I have GAINED a big part of me too- I have gained 60 pounds since the day my DS was diagnosed. Chocolate is a cheap and legal pain killing drug.Cheers Jean! I raise my King-sized Hershey bar to you!!
(your initial message cracked me up a little too!!)
Glad you're found!

ROTFLMAO HORANIMALS!!!

Back (a million years ago) when I was young, the saying was that people needed to 'find themselves', once we had a visiting remote family member come to see my super strict and super conservitive granny. He had longer hair, aviator glasses (surely a sign of evil..LOL), blue jeans, cowboy boots and a leather jacket. My granny thought he was surely up to no good. He told her he was traveling the country trying to find himself and she told him thats why they give you a birth certificate and drivers license...............ROTFL!!!!!!!!!

Thanks for making me smile!