Yesterday was the first day of Sunday school. I was going to let ds go by himself since it is very loosely structured and he was fine last year when I would step out of the room. Well, right out of the gate he started screaming about using the mens bathroom (as if he knew about the recent thread!) I won't let him even though it would probably be ok at church. He would expect to do it everywhere like at the mall and that is not safe. He screamed so loud " I want to use the man one" over and over and layed on the floor. I guess he was nervous about sunday school because he hasn't had a lay on the ground while were out tantrum in a long time. He eventually went in the womens and cried some more and then into class where he was much quieter than usual but acted just fine. I'm so bummed. I hate to have a pity party but I get kind of jealous of people who can just drop their kids off with the assumption that all will be fine. I have never had that luxery and with all 3 I don't think I ever will. If I think about that too much I will get depressed so I don't think about it usually. Usually I just think about what is currently happening. Do you have this problem as well. Seeing them in school or other social settings makes me sad for them and me sometimes.
Yes,this is hard.So I have been staying with him during each service for the last 5 or 6 months. And it has been hard over the summer because the structure is so loose. But he is doing better - not perfect but better. Yesterday I had to take him out of the class because he started melting down during prayer because it was someone else's turn to turn down the lights. I am going to write him a little story to help with the transitions and maybe soon I will get to go to church myself (we only have one service right now).
I understand your sadness. I get there myself sometimes.
Tricia