mommy meltdowns | Autism PDD

any other mommys have meltdowns???   Lately seems like i've been losing it more often.   I feel so guilty just i feel at the end of my rope.  I'm angry I guess,  I can live with most characteristic of autism  but the lack of understanding of language seems to be the most dificult part for me.   And  both of my children are totally unaware of my emotions,  when they do notice mommy is upset its usually funny to them.   I guess i'm venting here..........thanks everyone for listening 

I have a mantra for those times ... "forgive yourself and move on."  Hard to do, but it is no help to your kdis if you are consumed by guilt.

And, yeah, when I have a meltdown they think it is FUNNY. 

I've had blowups. 

I've had everthing in between. 

I've felt guilty. 

I've felt anger. 

And sometimes felt nothing it seems.

I've had love.

I've had hugs.

But nowhere near enough.

I've felt happy.

I've felt sad.

Hell yeah...life's been rough.

But then I see his smile

And then I hold him or we sing

My heart is overjoyed

By the love my son gives to me.

Just composed that while sitting here reading your post.  I send you cyber hugs and hope things get better soon.

Rhosyn39318.4155439815Mary, I love what you wrote. Carloc, I hope things get better for you soon, until then vent away. And it will get better.  I am hearing a lot about language barriers with everyone's kids-does anyone deal with anger on a daily basis? My son is pdd-nos and 9 years old and I have bruises from the times he doesn't get his way. It scares the hell out of me...

Perfectly said Mary!!!!

We're human and dealing with things most other people couldn't understand. we are not perfect. That siad, yup, i've lost it many a time. Lately though, I just march him up tp his room and shut the door. That's how I've been dealing with it. Then when he comes down , I ask him what he  did and he'll say, "broke plate" or "spill milk" or "don't throw food" etc. So he's learning from the experience too.
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