Happy birthday to your little tinkerbell fan, and hang in there, Mom.
I understand how you feel. I had days like that. My boys are older now...24, 16 and our Danny is 15 (Asperger). It's tough when the kids are young..it was for me...but it will get better. Ask yourself....can I make it to the end of the day...don't think about tomorrow or the future. Really focus on that and it should help you.
Although I'm married to a great man...I also envy that he just gets up and goes to work. He's military and recently returned from being at a school for 11 months. He roomed with his former college roommate. Ya...it was great getting a call from him on the golf course as I was mowing our 16,000 square foot lawn. I also shoulder 90% of the emotional stress when it comes to our son Danny....but thankfully he's a wonderful support when I need him.
BN just turned 7 and we had an awesome birthday part for her. She loves Tinkerbell so everything was about Tink. She got to dress up as Tink and we even had a face painter come to the party dressed as Tink. It was amazing! Bn was in awe. She did awesome! It had rained all day on Sunday and there was tons of kids, noise and a crowd in the house.
Its the afternoon the following day that was a problem. I was trying to get her brother down for a nap and she kept banging the doors and making noise. I tried to tell her to get a book and quietly go to her room. She continued to be loud. So, I put her brother down and said she had to go downstairs until she was quiet. She wanted to gather all her stuff first. But at the time again was very loud. I said we would go in the living room first until she was quiet. She threw a fit. So, I said we had to go down to playroom until she could be quiet. She started throwing her stuff.
Before all this, she had scratched her brother and spit at me when we were outside. So, I took the kids inside knowing she was in overload.
I finally lost it downstairs and made her put her dress back on she threw. She thought there was a web on it because she had thrown it behind the t.v. stand. But I shook it out and nothing was there.
I got real mad and frustrated and had to go upstairs because for one, I was exhausted. Its mostly because I am not sleeping well at all. My toddler is off routine again because we had company over the weekend and he is not used to all the noise. So, in the course of the day I am not getting a nap and am with the kids all day until my husband gets home.
I totally understand what her problem was. She was exhausted and held it together on Sunday with all the people around her. And she was reaching out to me at naptime and her brother needed me too.
I just feel so stretched out and drained. I'm looking to go back to work part time but wonder if I will even have the energy. I envy my husband sometimes because he just has to get himself ready and go for the day.
Guess I just feel blue.
RA