how to feel awful 101 | Autism PDD
I feel that way when both my kids are having a bad day, for them there bad day lasts all day, I pray for bedtime on those days. I tend to feel guilty when I feel like I hate being a mom, but I know were all just human and not saints.Lots of hugs That sounds just awful. I am sorry you are going through such a difficult
time with the boys.
I hope you can find some sort of support. Is there any one to help with the
violent behaviors? Have you taken a training course on management of
injurious behaviors? It can help you to be much safer around these types of
outbursts.I don't have any great words of wisdom.
I'm sorry that you are having a tough time. 
Quinn wants to see the new Transformer's movie soo bad too, he keeps asking when are we going? What time? over and over again. In a way I should be relieved that he wants to go because I could not get him to go to a movie theater for over 5 years. He was afraid and did not like the going because he saw a loud movie when he was 4 yrs old.
I hope things improve for you and your family soon.
Donny and movies - it's the bane of our existence sometimes!!! 
He
memorizes release dates, and starts obsessing up to a year in advance.
He knows how to tell the date, but doesn't really understand time, so
every day he gets mad at me that I can't magically make it the day he
wants just because he's demanding I do.
He takes it further, and memorizes toy and game release dates too. Then
try explaining to him that just because something comes out that day,
doesn't mean we're going to buy it that day. Or that sometimes release
dates get delayed?! eeek!
Just the other day, he threw a big fit because it was June 26th, and
Transformers the video game (based on the movie) was supposed to be
released that day, and he wanted me to take him to FutureShop and buy it
then and there. Um, no! It's , and he doesn't need it! He's
spoiled enough as it is!
mamaKat - I do have training, lots of it. I work in a group home, so got
the training that way, but also have lots of experience between work,
fostering, and Donny. I just screwed up, like I do sometimes. I forced the
confrontation by staying in his space when he struck out at me. I should
have just evaded. But sometimes, darn it, I get sick of running away from
my own kid. Even though he can't help himself right then, I feel like I'm
letting him "get away with it", ya know?
Anyway, I'm going to go take a nice, long shower now that hubby's home,
and try to unwind. Looking forward to the kids' bedtime tonight!!!
Mason is very similar...he gets these things into his however irrational and there is no end to it...he just gets more and more unreasonable about them!
I too, try to remember that he has a reason for his behaviors, but some days it is so hard! You really just want to walk away! Even just an hour sometimes to recoop and calm would be so great and it seems like those are the times they get worse!
Sending you lots of hugs and letting you know that this episode will too pass...I wish I could promise you it won't return!! But just know that you aren't alone and you have friends out there!
I hate days that go south like that.
Hugs (and I am not touchy-feely, wish I were at times like this), and a wish for more peaceful days, to you!
Ugh, some days I hate being a mom.
Donny's been really wound up the last few days, as school is drawing to a
close, a movie he wants to see (Transformers) is coming up, and he's in a
bit of a manic cycle.
We had a big blowout Tuesday night, but managed to avoid any physical
stuff (he gets aggressive), basically because I just evaded and kept
directing him to his room.
Then, today, when I picked him up from school, he was just FOUL with
me. Wanted me to take him camping (he gets these things in his head,
and just won't/can't hear logic), which we're not doing until Labour Day
weekend. Screaming at me to "shut up" in school, smashing the school
door, tooling on my car (which really gets me riled, because it's new and a
lease, which is exactly why he does it, because he knows I don't like it
and he's button pushing). I tried to find out WHY he's angry/moody, as
usually if I can get to the bottom of it, we can solve the problem.
However, all I was getting was gibberish that made no sense. This
probably means he's experiencing psychosis/delusions (he has both).
Anyway, he didn't sleep much last night (part of the mania), so I told him
he'd have to have a rest when he get home.
Much screaming, slamming, swearing, etc. ensued. He got to the top of
the stairs, then refused to move. I misjudged in that, usually, as long as
I'm totally non-confrontational and use a light tone of voice, I can be
right next to him, talk to him, win him over, and gain compliance.
However, he was too out of it or mad or whatever for that, and punched
me, then moved to either headbutt or bite me. I blocked, and the end
result was that he slammed his face into the back of my fisted hand.
So now, without meaning to, I've basically punched my kid in the face.
He's got a big welt forming, my hand hurts, and I feel AWFUL. And he's
STILL being a jerk, of course. I iced his face and got him into bed. He's
screaming at me from his room off and on.
I realize that "being a jerk" doesn't quite describe it, that he has multiple
disabilities and mental health conditions which make his behaviour at
these times out of his control, but some days I just feel less
understanding and tolerant of it, you know? Especially as I was really
looking forward to a nice day with him, and giving him a big surprise
tonight for finishing the year off well (he didn't know about the surprise).
It doesn't help that his foster brother, who has FAS has been behaving
atrociously the last few days, and raised his hand to me yesterday (he's
18 and bigger than me). So I'm already frustrated and stressed, which
means my patience is less than usual.
Some days, being a mom to these boys is great. Other days, not so much
Just wanted to send some cyber hugs your way. I understand some days are just out of control rough here too and I'd like to put in my notice. LOL! I'm sure DH would give me a yeah right look if I even tried. Try to hang in there. Hopefully it will ease up soon.I miss the days when I used to be able to call in sick. Parenting is very
very hard work.
I hope things ease up on you and your boys soon.I feel for you! We still have those tough days. The ones that the power struggle goes on and on and we just can't get through to him.
I do understand the release date of things and wanting them, and the Um NO.!!!
That happens at our house too.
I'm sorry you guys are having a hard time! I hope things get better soon. I have worries about my Jason's aggression sometimes, too, but he's still so small there is nothing we can do about it except modeling and redirecting and time-outs. Hopefully, he will outgrow it.
Hugs to you!
I send lots of hugs as i am going through this with my little one right now.I just had major dental work done and he thinks its funny to throw stuff at mommys mouth
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